I was scrolling back through old blog posts, and found this draft that I wrote a year ago today! Weird that I was pondering ‘not having my family forever’ a year ago…..little did I know Annie would be diagnosed with a brain tumor less than a year later. I didn’t edit any of my words from a year ago, but the one thing I’ll add is that at this point, hubby is more ‘back to normal’ than he was then, apparently…..still no short-term memory, but sometimes that works in my favor, you know! 😉
*You never know how much time you have left!! This reality came crashing home at around 11 pm on December 14, 2006, when was BF was diagnosed with encephalitis, and the doc in the Emergency Room who gave us the news said, “Don’t worry!! Half of people who have this recover.”
I didn’t know then if I’d get him back, and if I DID get him back, how brain-damaged exactly would he be?? To be honest, I didn’t get the old BF back; he’s gone forever. He’s probably 85% recovered, I’d say, but life will never, never, ever be the same. HE will never, ever be the same.
I know, now, more than I ever knew before, that our time on this earth is finite….a breath in the wind. And I KNOW that when my time comes, or God forbid, any of my loved ones’ time comes, I will never regret that I spent TOO MUCH time with them, but I will ache over the time I could have spent with them and didn’t.
If I homeschool…..I’ll get those 8 school hours a day with my precious girl who is my joy and my treasure, hours I can never get back if I give them away to someone else.
And now I’m through talking about homeschooling for a while. (Maybe.)
Back to your regularly scheduled programming….