Where do I begin?

Probably with the #1 most texted word in my iPhone this week: hypocrite. That word has flown back and forth along with angry accusations and vicious, hateful words.

And its true: I never went to sleep last night, because I was tormented with the truth about who I REALLY am … a sinner and a hypocrite. I want to be better. I do. I have Jesus in my heart, after all, and my goal is to be MORE LIKE HIM.

But I’m still 100% human, and sometimes I forget to put on my What Would Jesus Do bracelet. For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate..

I want to do what Jesus would do, I really, really do, but I’m 100% human, and I’m really good at thinking only of myself, great at being materialistic, lazy, prideful, and unforgiving, and FABULOUS at crafting my words into powerful weapons and sighting them in on my target.

I’m ashamed to say that where I’ve had opportunities to be a light, I’ve been mean and hurtful instead. And Jesus would most definitely NOT do that.

Thankfully His mercies begin afresh EVERY morning, and today I have a chance to be better than I was yesterday.